Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

I am feeling sad today. There is no reason, I just am. Yesterday was a good day. The kids all had a day out of school, and we had some fun, and did some homework. Dentist appointments, dinner and a movie rounded out the night. Yet, at the end of the day, I felt deflated. How can such a busy, packed, accomplishing day leave you feeling empty?

I am feeling the loss of what would have been. My Ella would be about 6 weeks old. I miss her. I wish she were here. My house would not have gotten cleaned yesterday, and I am sure that my stress would have been great, trying to do homework, piano practice, reading, fun time, appointments and everything else. But, when it comes right down to it, I don't care. What would I have done with another child to care for? I just miss her.

Tomorrow? I don't know. Sometimes these "slumps" are short-lived. Other times they turn into a full fledged breakdown. I want to be strong, and I think that I am learning to feel my sadness, and then move on quicker than before. My hope is that tomorrow will be a better day. I know it will be a new day, and for now, that may have to be enough!