New Babies

NO, this is not an announcement. This is a bitch session. I have a ton of friends and acquaintances and neighbors who are pregnant. CONGRATS to them. I am happy for them and the joy that a new baby brings. My good friend just had her beautiful baby girl yesterday! She is adorable....and I want to scream! I feel like I have to be happy and "fake" with everybody. I need to vent, and yell and...well, BITCH!

My baby would be almost 18 month old. Walking, getting into everything. There are good parts to not having an 18 month old...I realize that, and am OK with my life, in general. But new babies are too much. I look at them, and they have good color, and can grip your finger, and ...... I never had that with my Ella. I will never have that again.

I want to curl up with my baby blanket that I made for Ella, and cry. And cry. And cry. But I can't. I am a mom, and a wife, and a taxi and a referee. I am too busy, which I think helps with the day to day emotions. But seeing the new lives that are coming down all around me, I am struggling.
SO, forgive me if I can't kiss and hug you. I am sorry if I have to turn away when you walk by with your cute preggo tummy. It is too much right now!

Lagoon the good, the bad and the ugly!

We decided to get Lagoon season passes for the family. We are not going on any major vacations, and thought this would be fun. Opening weekend was cold and super slow. We NEVER had to wait in a line. The kids had a great time, we didn't spend money on food, or games! It was a super fun weekend!
Bad??? I can't ride a couple of the rides. Like the Bat. They could not buckle the harness over me and my big fattness! Totally humiliating. My kids were awesome, but I have renewed drive to get this weight off. By the time the regular season opens (the week of Memorial Day) I will be able to ride any ride...ANY RIDE!!

I have 2 wonderful weekend a year. No kids. No husbands. Hot tubs. Chick Flicks. Junk food. Late nights. Oh, and scrapping!
I have now posted a countdown for our spring retreat! SO excited! I don't know that Brandon is terribly excited...but he is ALWAYS supportive of my bi-annual getaways! Love you babe.

Love you, my Sassy's!!!!!!!