Why?

Why another blog? I want a place to share my sadness and triumphs. I need a place to share my frustration, anger and tears. I also need a place to celebrate me, when I do good. My family blog is about my family. This blog is for my "Daily Stresses".

March 31, 2009

New Job!!!

So, I had an interview today, and it went really well. It was short, but apparently sweet. They said they had a couple more interviews today, and they would let me know by 5pm.
Well, at 2:00 she called and asked if I was still interested...um, yeah! So, I start tomorrow! I am going to go in tomorrow and do some paperwork and put out the Easter decorations! Fun huh!

March 29, 2009

Good News

Lets try a happy post, shall we?
I am looking for a job, and have had very little luck, as have many others. Then a couple of weeks ago, I did some networking! I got on my facebook page, and actually commented! Amazing, huh? Within minutes I had several responses from friends that knew of something.
The most exciting response was about a retirement home within walking distance from our house. The owner is in our ward, and they had announced in RS that they were needing a part time receptionist.
I called and talked to the owners wife, and she told me to contact the administrator. The next day, I called her, and made an appointment to fill out an application. We had a mini-interview, and I felt it went good. So, 2-3 days later, I called to check up with her, and she hadn't thought any more about it (they are opening another home, so they have a lot going on). "Great, I just wanted to keep in touch!"
So, a week went by, and I called again. "Hi, its Laura. I wondered if you and the lead RN have a time ready to meet with me?" (assume the sale, right?) We chatted, and she is still slammed, but she will do an interview next week.
"Thanks," I said. "I don't want to annoy you, but I am super interested." blah blah blah
" Don't worry, you aren't bugging me," she said. "You are following through, and being persistent!"

Long story short (or is it too late?) She called Saturday, and I have an interview Tuesday at 11:30, with the lead RN and her (the administrator)! I hope and pray that this will work out. The hours would work great with the kids school schedule, and it is so close to my house. I'll keep ya'll posted!

March 28, 2009

Children + HOA = Mental Breakdown

Children. You've got to love them, but sometimes... this is why I have a separate blog, so I can vent. They are driving me up the wall. Is there a reason that kids have to touch each other, like all the time. In the car, "he touched me"; eating dinner "she touched me". I have had it. I told them tonight that if eating was going to be like this, that we would just stop eating. Talk about an empty threat. But, really???

On top of which, I am super stressed. Some of you know that I am the secretary of our HOA. Not a huge deal. Take minutes at the meetings, keep the spreadsheet of homeowners up to date. Nothing major. Well, today, I had an email from a neighbor that their new neighbor was putting up a wooden fence (it must be white vinyl). Great, I'll check with the president and someone will get over there. Then, a phone call about same fence. "yeah" I said, "I am going to call Rick right now". She tells me, she just talked to Rick, and he resigned as HOA president yesterday...and in the absence of a president, all presidential duties fall to the secretary! ME!

So, I spent the morning talking to this very nice, new family (well, the wife) and telling her that she cannot put up her fence, and her garbage cans have to be behind the house, etc. Oh, and by the way, I know you are just renters, but the owner of this house hasn't paid his dues, and so we will have to collect them from you, plus all the accrued late fees!!! Welcome to the neighborhood!
Thankfully she was very nice, and understanding. The fence is temporary until the vinyl is installed to keep her 3 big dogs in their yard. ( the covenants state that you can only have 2 dogs...we'll cover that another day!!!)

March 26, 2009

Dentist

Ok, seriously, why do we have dentists? I am glad that they are able to fix our teeth, and that we don't have to suffer with painful aching teeth, or let them rot. So maybe my question should be, Why did God make teeth that can get cavities (or root canals, or crack etc.)?

I have had more dental problems in the last year, then in my whole life. Last February, I needed a root canal on one of my bottom molars. Apparently I have the longest roots EVER! They had to take several x-rays at increasingly higher angles to even see the bottom of my roots. So, welcome to the endodontist (root canal specialist). Goodbye $600.00

July, second root canal, same side, only upper tooth. I had it fixed, but not crowned. I was still having morning sickness, and they said that the temporary cover should last til after the baby. So, goodbye $400.00.

For several weeks, I have noticed that I could see through my front tooth. Like there was a hole behind it, and light was getting through. Well, that is exactly what it was. Plus 4 other cavities, and a crown for my last root canal! My morning was spent getting my whole mouth numb (of course all the cavities aren't together. 1 on top left, 1 bottom left, 1 top right, 1 bottom right). So 2 hours later, all fixed up, I cannot feel my mouth, or nose, or chin. I know that I am biting my cheek raw, but I can't help it!. Goodbye $400.00 more!

Oh, I hate the dentist!!!!! He didn't even give me a prize!

March 24, 2009

Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

I am feeling sad today. There is no reason, I just am. Yesterday was a good day. The kids all had a day out of school, and we had some fun, and did some homework. Dentist appointments, dinner and a movie rounded out the night. Yet, at the end of the day, I felt deflated. How can such a busy, packed, accomplishing day leave you feeling empty?

I am feeling the loss of what would have been. My Ella would be about 6 weeks old. I miss her. I wish she were here. My house would not have gotten cleaned yesterday, and I am sure that my stress would have been great, trying to do homework, piano practice, reading, fun time, appointments and everything else. But, when it comes right down to it, I don't care. What would I have done with another child to care for? I just miss her.

Tomorrow? I don't know. Sometimes these "slumps" are short-lived. Other times they turn into a full fledged breakdown. I want to be strong, and I think that I am learning to feel my sadness, and then move on quicker than before. My hope is that tomorrow will be a better day. I know it will be a new day, and for now, that may have to be enough!