Pity Party

I would like to invite you all to my pity party. It is happening right now. I don't know why, or what triggered it, I am just sad.
Church is so hard. I go to sacrament with the family, but I cannot stay for the whole block. I get too emotional and there are too many babies. I don't know what to do to change this. I just am usually down Sunday evening, and quite often into Monday. But today is especially, ummm, sad. I want to curl up and be alone. But, my four restless kids will have none of that!
Some days it is easy to be content and find joy in my regular life. I can see the sun shining, or even the rain clouds, and be happy. I am patient and loving and understanding of my kids. I am a great person.
BUT...then the tide changes, or the phases of the moon, or whatever. I find no joy in my fun bright flowers we just planted (that I got for free)! I look at my scrapbook corner and don't care that I could work on stuff...I should be too busy with a baby to work on stuff. Doing things with my kids is torture (can't you just entertain yourself for a while?). Today is one of those days.
I am hoping to wake up on a different side of the bed tomorrow.

SCRAPBOOK CORNER

We have had a couple of yard sales, and have gone through many boxes in our basement, and sold or threw out or donated a TON of stuff.

Well, one of Brandon's major annoyances is that my scrapbook stuff is stored in our room (closet shelves, drawers, my big trunk). He is so patient! But...if we move the toys under the stairs, then I can set up a table in this corner, and set up my scrapbook stuff.

So, here are some pictures of my space. It is pathetic, I know, but it is MINE! I have 12 cubes/squares/cubbies and 2 rolling carts with drawers.

Now I need advice on how to use my limited space effectively. So, I am open for any and all suggestions. And yes, I will be getting some more lighting in here!

Girls

I just blogged about my darling Olivia. I am so, so, so, so grateful to have her. She makes me smile.
But I am sitting here missing my "girls" -notice the S-. I was so looking forward to having "girls". I would have made matching easter dresses. Found bracelets that were the same for both of them (or all 3 of us). Liv and Ella matching hair bows! Sister pictures! Liv being the "big sister". I am just sad that Liv and I are going to be the only girls in our family for a long, long, long (are you kids all seeing this?) long, long, long time.
Thank heavens for my twins that gave me my Princess Olivia!