New Years RESOLUTIONS

I have made some very serious resolutions this year. I want to see some changes in my life, and am committed to doing the following:

Without fail, no excuses...I will drink the recommended 8 glasses of water each week! NO skipping weeks, no "forgetting". 8 glasses a week!

I will engage in cardio activity for a minimum of 30 minutes at a time at least once a month. That's right, once a month. Don't laugh, I KNOW I can do it! And as I do this each month, I will get stronger! Just watch!

Lastly (not too many, as I want to actually accomplish these) I plan on loosing weight. As I have read, and studied this subject for many years now, I know that there is a safe and realistic limit to how much you should loose, and how quickly. So as not to set myself up for failure, but still "push" myself, this year, I will loose a minimum of 2 pounds. It would be great to loose more that that, and I will certainly report my success. But, really, more than 2 pounds in a year, and you risk it being a temporary weight loss, and I don't want to yo-yo. I will loose those 2 pounds, and they will STAY OFF!

So there you have it. My 2011 New Years Resolutions list! I am committed to these goals, and I know they will help my life! I will be happier, healthier and hotter (the 3 H's). Check back periodically to see how I am progressing!

New Babies

NO, this is not an announcement. This is a bitch session. I have a ton of friends and acquaintances and neighbors who are pregnant. CONGRATS to them. I am happy for them and the joy that a new baby brings. My good friend just had her beautiful baby girl yesterday! She is adorable....and I want to scream! I feel like I have to be happy and "fake" with everybody. I need to vent, and yell and...well, BITCH!

My baby would be almost 18 month old. Walking, getting into everything. There are good parts to not having an 18 month old...I realize that, and am OK with my life, in general. But new babies are too much. I look at them, and they have good color, and can grip your finger, and ...... I never had that with my Ella. I will never have that again.

I want to curl up with my baby blanket that I made for Ella, and cry. And cry. And cry. But I can't. I am a mom, and a wife, and a taxi and a referee. I am too busy, which I think helps with the day to day emotions. But seeing the new lives that are coming down all around me, I am struggling.
SO, forgive me if I can't kiss and hug you. I am sorry if I have to turn away when you walk by with your cute preggo tummy. It is too much right now!

Lagoon the good, the bad and the ugly!

We decided to get Lagoon season passes for the family. We are not going on any major vacations, and thought this would be fun. Opening weekend was cold and super slow. We NEVER had to wait in a line. The kids had a great time, we didn't spend money on food, or games! It was a super fun weekend!
Bad??? I can't ride a couple of the rides. Like the Bat. They could not buckle the harness over me and my big fattness! Totally humiliating. My kids were awesome, but I have renewed drive to get this weight off. By the time the regular season opens (the week of Memorial Day) I will be able to ride any ride...ANY RIDE!!